too much food… responsibility… back to work

this is going to be a theme for the next couple weeks, but we need to say thanks to the waters, the scheese, and the crockett families for more food.  it's been fun not having to cook/clean.  we've definitely been spoiled by the generosity of colstrip!  it's funny to look in our fridge though.  no one seems to cook for just eva and i... every meal would feed at least four people so we have lots of leftovers!  while eva's melting away (i really think breastfeeding is nature's liposuction) i'm packing it on!

i had a conversation with ryan reid yesterday that really sums up a lot of what i've been feeling.  we were talking about how everything changes when you transition from the 'no kids club' (rusty and stacy are the final members... until june that is) to becoming parents.  i thought i understood, but apparently i was naive (and still am i'm sure).  there are several milestones in my life that i can see where i matured or became more responsible.  leaving the nest for college... my first "real" job... times when i took steps to becoming more independent.  getting married... first employees... but even this added responsibility wasn't preparation for having a child.  i want to give eva the best but if i dropped the ball, i know eva would be fine.  i'm motivated to provide for my employees' and their families, but they could find other work.  peleh is so utterly and completely dependent on us that if we don't come through, he can't.  just can't.  it's so weird thinking that someone elses life is so contingent upon our provision.   we love him so much and want the best for him in everything.  i can't wait to live out that responsibility to the best of my ability.

so this week is the first week i really have tried to get back to work.  having family stay with us made it feel like vacation, so i asked the boss and took some time off! end of the month taxes were the kick in the butt i needed to finally get back to it.  my crew has been great working on their own and have finished up a couple jobs that look great.  it feels good knowing they don't need me.  today, i met with leaders from the crow tribe and am continuing to build a relationship for some significant projects in the near future.  it's good to get back into it.